Still Healing🕊

A you and a me,
Not so much alike,
But love made us we,
With an oxytocin spike.

You did nice things,
You spoke so well,
We made paper rings,
Love had cast it’s spell.

You fed me attention that I never got,
Made me feel the most special from the lot,
Who knew these were just minutes of happiness,
Soon to turn into hours of sadness?

You loved me for my simplicity,
Then did things you’d have to hide.
Blamed me for your duplicity,
Punched walls, yelled and lied.

Sweet dreams got bitter.
Goodbyes turned bad.
Life that shined like glitter,
Now seemed so sad.

Today I miss you in abundance.
The way you held me in your arms,
As if I’d never experience redundance,
Before I heard your false alarms!

Your lies kept growing like a vine,
And your denials were the black flowers I wore in my hair.
Ignoring every red flag, every sign,
Looking past my heartfelt despair.

A whiff of your scent,
And my eyes get filled to the brim,
Every minute with you I spent,
Flashes before my eyes that are now dim.

You did love, and loved truly,
But maybe your love for it, was more than your love for me.
Stupid me told you it wasn’t your fault,
To save you from the guilt of walking out.

Maybe your honesty was only confined to be proven right,
Even if the things you did were not.
All the fights you wouldn’t ignite,
For the sole reason of getting caught.

Your apologies don’t feel so true,
As if you’ll repeat history as soon as I believe you,
Decorate me with false promises and lies,
Make me fall for you once more before our final goodbyes.

But I’m growing, and growing strong,
When I say this don’t get me wrong,
Like you said your mistakes were destined to be,
I say this ending, you were destined to see.

Entangled.

Letting go of you was
Like pulling myself out of
The entanglement
Of a barbed wire fence.
It hurt like a special kind of hell.
But God, what a sweet release to be free. 🖤

A heart that loves, grows!

You love someone, and someone loves you back,
That span of time when there’s nothing that your heart could lack.
Budding and blooming with joy and warmth,
Then comes a day when everything is transformed!

They break your heart to set themselves free,
Making you feel like a lost fish in the sea..
Billions around but no one like them,
You lock yourself in your heart, thinking you lost a gem!

Can you truly lose what was never yours?
And lock everyone outside your closed doors?
Why don’t you invest your love in yourself?
And make your heart bloom by itself.

Everytime you cry and every second you feel low,
Your heart is a garden that ceases to grow,
Love is its water, and faith is its light.
But love doesn’t need to come from outside!

Look within your beautiful soul,
That loved unconditionally before things got out of control.
Be the kid that ran after butterflies,
The one that once spread happiness through smiles,
The clumsy kid that laughed at everything,
The one who told everyone to live their life as a king!

Why do you not see your worth?
Oh artistic piece of this beautiful Earth!
Shed those thorns built across your heart
Love endlessly and do your part.

Watch your heart blossom with flowers,
Watch life’s love for you through beautiful showers
of a love that comes like the wildest rain,
And all I hope is it never leaves you again!💝🍃

🖤A stubborn hearts’ guide to Outlove (exceed in loving)💟

Every happiness lies in little things done,
Done without intentions, yet outdone!!

Like tight hugs that surprise you from behind,
An expression of love that stays undefined.

Like moments spent gazing at your precious one,
Thinking to yourself that my love has only just begun.

Like hands that intertwine unintended,
And suddenly your hearts’ demons go home offended.

Like kisses that have the power to heal your soul,
That patch up your wounds and fill your hearts’ hole.

Like the playfullness of an innocent child,
But also making you do things so wild!

These feelings that get barred by human egos,
Or something so powerful that nobody knows?!

So shatter your ego, let love be selfless,
Cause it’s one thing I know, to not be a mess.

Trying to out-love each other only brings you closer,
Treating them worthy of your love, will not depict you a poser.

Every kiss of yours will plant a seed of self-love in them,
Making their love even more stronger and proud of what it became!

That is the love that shines through their eye,
Your mere presence would make stars shine through the sky!

Some loving words that you’d utter from your mouth,
Could counter their depressed heart of self-doubt!!

You don’t understand you’re the one killing their heart,
Depriving it of love, which is essential to not fall apart.

Your love is the glue that’s holding them together,
That’s keeping them firm and battle hurdles altogether.

And don’t blame them for loving you too much,
Love is all they have as such.

You are the one that knows them inside out,
YOU would they come running to, when their demons shout too loud!

So hear them when they’re quiet and listen to their ache.
You are THAT Will, THAT reason their heart wants to wake,

“To wake up in the morning, because they have arms that hold them with joy and eyes that see them with love,
Isn’t love truly the most easy yet complicated lesson sent from heaven above?”

–Kainat Panjwani

🌔 Eclipse 🌑

Don’t be the sun, dazzling so bright that you can’t help but squint, why not lighten up the darkest nights? Why not be the moon to people’s lives?

Burning to flames so dire, what else could you expect from a ball of fire? But then it sets to let the moon rise, letting darkness overpower it’s secret compromise.

That’s love when it knows it’s causing pain, gently patting the moon to come over again.

Sun and Moon – the most complicated relationships, coming together and causing an eclipse! “Let’s dim the light, it’s our night,” says the Sun. Then says the Moon, “You’re my only one.” 

Raining thoughts on a night of light ⚡🌃

The way you smell
I can only tell,
how wonderful it is
to feel your bliss

Over my face, touching my skin,
making my heart wander and spin,
With thoughts of you inside my head,
and words penned down while on my bed.

Every drop of you has the sense of love,
like a blessing of God sent from above,
like the universe working in synchrony,
like my heart and soul functioning in harmony.

Making me question of your sudden flow,
When I needed someone and was feeling low,
You’re not human so how do you know?
There really is an Almighty executing this show!

The writer, the director whatever you call,
There really is someone who will never let you fall.
And if he does, it’s just to pick you up,
Giving you strength to make you stand up.
Teaching you through his unknowing ways,
Never letting you forget all the hardest days.

Yes I know you can’t see him, but have you tried to feel?
When nature holds you in its winds or When your mom makes your favourite meal?
When thunder encourages you by cheering with the loudest noise,
Or sensing the calmness when there’s absolutely no voice?

It is a paradox how sometimes you like the thunder and sometimes you prefer just rain,
Sometimes you feel the happiest even while experiencing pain.

Some things will always remain a mystery,
To keep our minds working so they never are free,
of thoughts or confusions or our wildest dreams,
Never being able to figure out why everything is not as it seems.

Maybe not today but tomorrow we’ll know,
Why they say you reap as you sow,
Why everything about Nature is always in flow,
About times you can’t help but feel too low,
About people wanting to leave that you can’t let go.

So stop stressing over things you can’t control,
Close your eyes and ask your soul,
Cause one universe is right there and one is right here,
One is within everyone, there’s nothing to fear.

Making humans hold a Multiverse within,
still making errors and committing sins.
So cut all the happiness you get from someone’s doom,
because only one universe can help another bloom.💫

It’s a catastrophic battle, the one you fight with yourself.

I’m lying on my bed, 

with thoughts running through my head.

Lately I’ve been feeling so low,

maybe cause I’m not seeing myself grow,

or get better at things I already know.
Don’t know why I feel so bad,

maybe cause I’ve never been this mad,

running in circles not getting anywhere,

Not wanting anyone to actually care.
These problems are mine, made up in my head,

making me cry while I lay on my bed,

Tears I’ve either repressed or no one saw me cry,

I’ve hidden them so well that nobody can ask why.
I lift people up but they don’t see me drowning beneath,

They try to suffocate me when I’m helping them breathe.
It’s a twisted world where a good person is labelled as bad,

The one that looks the happiest is the most sad.
That’s the only way to escape these judges,

who think they know your life better than yourself.

you know they won’t understand but you try,

Then they call you weak because you cry.
I’m telling you don’t listen to them,

Tears aren’t weakness, each tear is a gem,

But sometimes you gotta lose it all to begin again,

So cry it off and be happy then.
You’re not weak, you’re as strong as a diamond,

They can’t break you, of strength they’re frightened,

So be your hero, save yourself!

your label of weakness CAN be changed to strength!

You can change it, no one else can,

bringing you down is their plan.
Care for yourself, improve yourself, do everything necessary to pick up yourself!!
Strengthen yourself, live for yourself, but most importantly learn to love yourself!!
There are others out there just like you,

Pick them up, nobody gets them too,

Lifting someone up is what people with strength do.
You my friend define what strong is,

you’ve been through so much, now life is bliss.

Help yourself grow, make the most of what you’ve got,

Love all these lessons that you’ve been taught.
Tomorrow brings a new day, see the sun rise,

Leave back your tears and all your silent cries.
Wake up with a smile and love in your eyes,

Kiss your problems away with tons of goodbyes.❤